1st sept (day11)
hm... kinda miss jooe's jokes....
computer cannot access to the server!!! yappie!!!
my supervisor also busy till forgot abt me (i guess)
cant do anything but to blog n surf...

HAI!! SO HARD ON ME!!~~ hahaha~ ok lah~
just not used to it so free...

was tokin with zhen last night... resulting in lack of good sleep...
actually cant blame... me cant bear to log off!~
both of us r tokin abt our special someone...
told her i will show her the scar this week.... big one!

everyone is tokin so loud here!! hai~ they dunno me... otherwise i
sure click real well with them!! haha~ even when the manager called
home, she was speakin in hokkien abt never go sch? today not goin home to eat,
dunno who havent bathe yet...

so proud of myself sometimes that i actually understand hokkien..
pple tend to see that u r young n dun understand... but alot of times,
is fun that u know wat they r tokin abt u... by the way, im not hokkien!
so who knows which dialect im from?! coz i dun like my dialect!!~ aarrghh~
but i admit im a hainanese...

apply mascara.. like got no diff?! coz today eye r really tiny n red!!~

hmm... really like to look at this guy in my office... dunno how 2 describe..
but his looks really memerisin 4 me!!

29th august (day10)
YESH! last day of work for this month! 50 days! countdown!....
hm... bad news is.. drivin exams is in less than 15days time...
im scared...

called pau right from i step into office...
cant find her.... today got go out leh....
last min thing....~ want to go to my favourites,N.Y.D.C!!
must ask them... dyin to eat my bake rice...

friday today.. accordin to all AMERICAN COMPANY,
is a casual day today! n somehow, the clothes i wear seem...
too cowboy?! esp with all the shiny accessories, my fossil watch, earrings, bracelet, rings, i looked so "not matchin in the office..."

i dunno?! is all demin... but is so standard... i wear demin like 90% of the year coz demin materials are so thick? n im always so scare of cold?! even in shoppin centres or anywhere u will see me bringin my levis jacket along...

my sup was sayin i feel cold because i never eat... ? i got wat... anyway how she know?! hm.. must b i too pretty she always look at me! haha~ jokin lah!~
ok, will meet pau later at woodlands mrt~ than go town meet
the rest! yaya!! happy!!

nothin can beat my happiness with my pau!!

AH! guess wat?! my sup ask me for my password for my computer login...
i was so so SOOO RELUCTANT!!!
if she knows my blogger, emails, anything with password logins...
AHHHH!! *grab hair*
when she heard my password.... she was like,"???"
told her is my nickname!~ GOD! so obvious it was a guy's name!
(me no despo! when i 1st started my hotmail n stuff, that was the 1st
password i used till now! n is easy to remember... anyway i changed all my
emails n all those logins liao! all the same still! but is all numbers... HAHA!)

28th august (day9)
just 51 more days!!
9th of sept got drivin exams... took paid leave!
23rd of oct got Deepavali... considered paid leave!

meaning i got 49 days of hell!but.... another complain...
Deepavali is a public holiday lah! im forced to take leave!
and im only allowed 3 days paid leave!
3-2=1 day..

trust me... is pei here...
I WILL USED UP ALL the PAID leaves....

ok, maybe im mean... but im havin my attachements here!
who will pay me for NOT COMING?!

tummy not feelin too good...
felt like vomitting..

aishah knew one of my sec sch classmates... shall not reveal her name...
this is wat she said..

ai: i always dun understand y her this type of face got so many guys~
me: *instant shock* she?! alot of guys?! huh?!
ai: ya! dunno where she find one.. everytime she come for practise, she will always bring a different guy..
me: wow! sure anot?! i dunno her well.. but my classmates never liked her...

there is this only yandao at my office.. like to look at him alot.. BUT DOESNT MEAN IS MY TYPE! jus like to see his face..
yz shld know abt this! i was stalkin him when she called! NAH! THINK I SO WU LIAO?! is goin home by the same route..

Touga and Utena (the movie version). Face it, you
live in the past and cannot stop thinking about
your lost love. You gave your heart away and
you have been destroyed by the void you are now
left with. If only you would let go, you would
see that another oportunity awaits you..

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19th of august (day2)
if someone scares me, and i got terrified by it, this someone is
A TERRORIST! (logic from my crappy sister)

my attachment was super bad.. everywhere was pple wearing this
astronuts suite covered from head to top... aint they supposed to stay in
the factory? y walk ard in the office to scare me!? stupid "terrorists" ..

wats next abt the company? the policy.. strictly no food, drinks, sweets
in the office.. if caught eating sweet.. we r DEAD!
break hours, 15 mins break and 30 mins lunch break.. canteen got to
climb up stairs! by the time i tot of wat to buy all these..
is TIME TO GO BACK! isnt it wonderful???!

everyone got no life there... no soul in their eyes.. the place
im sitting doesnt have network! god! getting a M1 sim card
real soon....

the problem abt it is
i dun like to waste time n sitting down there to doing nothing..
pple complain abt things to do, n i got nothing to do i shld not
complain so much.. but have it occurred that im not lazy thats y
i WANT TO WORK?!

oh fuck! wat the hell! to think i was rather positive yesterday!
i want to learn things lor! not giving me somethings so vague...

think im really stressed out... cryin for no reason.. for the third time
i can remember... for no reason...
1st was O level maths
2nd was my guzhen exams
3rd is my attachment...

tot i will be able to make some friends here...
well, no luck.. only got 1friend which i hardly tok to her...
n a supervisor who only smiles to me...

god! this is only the 2nd day! cant believe this...
got (12weeks times 5days) - 2days - 2 leaves im
goin to take = 54days of hell! thank god it end at 430pm!
that makes me feel that is endin fast

thank god i found a place which my starhub had located
its network... in the "centre of nowhere" on my table!!
stupid place! how to do work?

everytime i received a sms i will be really so happy...
REALLY.. im a loner over here.. tok less than 10 sentences a day!
gosh! i wonder how can there be introvert pple around?!
how can they live? n i really not used to the PA system
callin 4 pple every seconds! n ringing of phones... noisy... like
some kinda trading company...

received sher, val, shir, diana, fei, derek sms today!
at least 3 of them entertain me by replyin... just to let
u know that I LOVE U GUYS!

walk ard the office for no reason.. jus look ard for chiobu or
yandaos.. hm.. only one really dao lookin ger n one guy with
i like... but than... i still like this guy from my sch!~ hope he
doesnt know.. coz im doin it a little bit too obvious!!~

54 days.. just 54 days more... *aarrgghh* auguest till november!
so cold.. maybe i will b like shin.. got to send home by DHL !!

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20th august (day3)
hai... guess he is busy.. only a good mornin msg received by him...

ok, did the usual stuff... morning msg to some who is having
their attachment... goin to toilet for like never ending.. refill water..
being happy to be able to finish n refill them again~

my fringe has definately blocked my sideviews... coz cant even see if
"danger" is comin.. got to trim them short!

said something bad abt the work attachment given... GOSH!
I REGRET!! but nvm.. im honest straight forward abt it....

laugh at shin blog very loud just now... quite lame... i mean,
okok is supposed to be touchin n stuff like that? but looked,
if ur mum ask u to go n never come back, n after all these, u went back,
than ur mum said something like that," GIRL AH! WHERE U GO?
FASTER COME BACK! OR ELSE FOOD COLD LIAO!"
i mean, 1stly ur mum got to the mood 2 really cook? 2ndly,
she scare she cooked too much, cold liao no one eat?

my sup was tokin to me just now... guess wat?
all the maths formula i learned all come in used!
jalat! like my maths very good?! anyway she was stating an example
about gender, age n so on.. than i was at the same time clearing
my throat..erm.. erm..(cant remember wat sound i made..)
when she said gender. so she tot i didnt know wats was gender...

she said very loudly, erm, u know sex? sex? ya sex blah blah..
i suddenly open my eye widely at her thinkin y she said that?
yet i cant laugh.. MY GOD!! i wonder who heard it?!

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21st august (day4)
i tink my sup got stiff neck..
somemore so happy to finish my 1ST assignment
go find her, (which is like 3 steps away?)
than she ma chime like shock?! than give me those
oh ok lor.. than do the next one..

WOW LAO! i also still kid lor!! cant even
entertain me meh? at least say like ,"hmm, so fast ar?
(eh actually program she do, i just cut n paste, coz i REALLY DUN KNOW?)
hm.. good good.."

n also that PA system here is really drivin me nuts! every min at least
8 pple name being called?! those who actually call me to check how
am i would know my background voices like changi airport~

always the same thing," mr so-n-so, pls call 123"
best part, some operators guess dunno how to pronouce indian or
some weird name, they will just hum thru...
got cin cai, lucy, bobby, ni na buey? got really weird names...
wat dragon also have! god!! remember got pang jin lian!
so when is phoniex n wu da lang comin out?!
ok thats mean.... like mine very nice... kao bei?! WORST!

came back from lunch, aisha brought me to the production place..
quite interesting... factory!! n the other side is the office...

gave my mum my office no.. GOD! I REGRET! she call me for really
small things like she always will....

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26th august (day7)
hm... aishah sick today. no one go for lunch today. but nvm~
coz i DUN EAT ANYWAY! go home than eat.. is 930am.. by the time i reach home,
is 7pm? eh.. can lah.. ok, someone is quarrellin with the manager inside
im just outside, can hear even single word.. HE IS CRYING! yet the woman in
there is so firm.. wow! wish i was like her.. yet a bit too woman chavinistic?
wat is unfair, wat no motivation, true lah, this company everyone no soul one...
(not the factory side lah)

ok, been emailin my mentor. when i ask him to write a testimonial on me,
he reply, are u one of my mentees?! GOD?!

brought all my n level, o level, testimonial n everything... to my sup...
she wants them! dun ask y, i dunno?! my poly too!


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